I haven't had a lot to write about lately.. or rather the time or urge to write! A lot of things have been happening lately.. I kind of wish things would just slow down. I have this weirdd sensation of vertigo; i feel as if maybe im doing something wrong? Or is it that im doing the right thing and im just a little unsure? Is what im doing even able to constitute as wrong or right??
 So you see, im confused. :/ Why should i even be confused about this? Is it normal? I feel as if Im in a blindingly white room, with no sense of time or direction. I'm one of those spinning things at parks; I'm turning round and round with only a vague idea of what the blurs around my spinning world are; not even knowing the time of day. How does a mind find itself out of that mess of blurred colors and forms? Of undistinguishable chaos?